i think yesterday was one time where i learnt what true worship is.
its not about how you do it, or where, but more of why you do it. and how you respond to the things around you.

2 days ago, i had to run around my house neighbourhood in ...disgustingly disgusting shorts.
when i went out. i felt so crap like i just didn't feel like doing the daily jog.

and thats when God reminded me about true worship; why do you raise your hands in worship? Cuz the congregation does it? or cuz it looks cool? ( ok clearly it doesn't)
but how bout more of cuz we lift it to actually praise God? To have the actual close and personal worship that we share.

another time when i went jogging, God impressed upon me the decision i should actually have taken. and i believe will have to take sooner or later.

As some of you know, i may not be able to make it for worship pracs because i got a cca in the morning, thus the two commitments collide. And as i was asking God for help, to find out which way is the way he wishes for me to continue.
He gave me this sentence
" A true christian walks the narrow path, Many fall out of it into the wide one"
even though God didn't exactly answer my question. but i think he was talking about how easy it is for my to just lie and give a fake excuse just to skip band and go for prac.

which i sometimes have been doing. So... i guess that the direction he is kinda leading me into is to withdraw from the music min for a while.

Maybe. i don't really know yet.

"In Him I will put my trust"

Really lazy to copy and paste the entire thing... Pls refer to my blog for the fortnight post

http://yqcabizpark.blogspot.com

Thanks,
Yong Quan

exams over

hey guys,

yes, i'm the bad example that no one should follow coz i have not been blogging at all since err, i don't even dare to go back to check. haha. i'm very sorry. i had a crazy workload this semester and it was a lot of book reading, essay writing, tests, essay(S) re-writing (this was the ultimate horror) and then the rush to exams. i finished my last paper yesterday so yay! rejoice with me. haha.

yeah, because of my own mad school life, i haven't been focusing my energies and mind on youth music. that's my error/sin. tianyi suggested that we have a meeting next sun, 11 may so yeah, i'll send out agenda soon but it's mainly to catch up and pray coz there're so many things we need to commit to God together. the bassist crisis has been a real downer for me. i'll share more when i see everyone and hmm, i'm quite happy that now that the hols are here, i'll be able to focus my energies and time properly. i'll most probably ask u guys out for tea or something so pls don't break my heart and refuse me!!!! haha.

i concur with pastor completely about not being complacent coz for a while, i think i was praying about that too. i say i think coz i have zero memory now :P and yeah, i've been sorta asking God, how come there doesn't seem to be fruit in the ministry, particularly the ymm. like the musicians who serve. i pray for them that even if when they started playing, they didn't have a relationship with God then somehow through service, that relationship will start and somehow, it doesn't seem so. if anyone wants to disagree about this, please do. and then i struggle a lot with what 'kind' of people should be allowed to serve. i'm rambling and my grammar and syntax is all over the place. gahsh. ok la. i'll try to share my heart succinctly when we have the meeting.

but let's really persevere in praying for the ministry.

You hold my future in Your hands

Honestly speaking... I keep missing the deadline for the posting... Here is my post now!

Anyway, two weeks ago, after youth service... I was listening to this song "I Need You" (posted below) and suddenly one of my schoolmates came into my mind. He is those kind of person which emmits a "go-away-or-regret-it" aura. He is pretty antisocial with his face stuck into a frown... I don't know what was happening but suddenly I had the urge to talk to him... although a big part of me did not want to... The thought just got thrown out of my mind and I continued on with life...

A few days later, another song struck me (also posted below) and I saw him again in my mind... [Request] Pls pray for me about this matter, 'cos it could be that God wants me to talk to him.

I don't know what's with me and songs but YET another one hit me just last Friday... Here are the lyrics

Saving Grace

I'm holding on to you
I'm never letting go
'Cause You have saved my soul
And You have made me whole

You took my brokeness
And filled me with Your joy

All I long to do is worship
All I long to do is bring You praise
For nothing compares to You
My Saving Grace

Jesus Saviour
My life belongs to You forever
'Cause You have set my heart on fire
And You have set me free


I just got struck in the face and got some cool resolution which I (quite stupidly, thinking about it later) shared in class the following day. My resolution? "To save my entire class" It was like one of the many desires in my heart... But after saying that, I felt rather stupid and lame as a thought came into my mind "Why don't you put your actions to where your heart is? Studies are more important! Why care about it?" (Summarised thoughts)

Spiritually dry now... But I believe that God is going to do something mighty in my school... He planted me there for a reason... since I tried getting out of my school last year and I FAILED!!!

Yeah... That is about all I got to share for today... Cheerio!

In God's mercy,
Yong Quan

P.S Songs are in my listening order...

somehow. beautiful savior started playing on my itunes.
then i felt peaceful. and i sat there at my com just singing and worshipping God through all the music and stuff.

really awesome.
Nothing really to share. but then again... somehow i feel really close to God on Sunday afternoons. when everything seems so dreary.

EDIT/6.50PM

i dont know this is so awesome... as i was listening to the song 'devotion'
i felt this wave of 'thing' just impact on my face... then i just broke down. for like. 3 mins.
For no absolute reason.
once again, God showing his greatness during pre monday blues.
legendary

was reading shumms post... and i thought may as well write this down before it escapes my mind
this happened last sunday on 5th april

So... as usual i was feeling all gloomy and sad la. pre monday blues.
Then i dunno why but i just picked up the book Joel lent me 'God Chasers' i think the title was.

So.. yeah after i read the book. i started crying for like no apparent reason?
uhh i lazy to write the whole experience again so can go to my blog... its
http://watchthis-space.livejournal.com
yups.
and i believe it was like.... so cool that Pastor A was also talking about like not being complacent a few weeks ago... and not to stop at this 'start of the revival' stage.

cuz like in chapt 3 of the book. they were talking about how it always feels good at the start (At Youth Camp 2007)
And then later on it gets boring (Now)
so like... i mean just strive on lah.. theres no point stopping now since we've worked so hard just to get this thing started.

oh yes and before i forget... it also talks about having the hunger and thirst for God. which somehow also kinda linked to the bible verse i was sharing during devotion...so.. yah la quite cool.
i guess that our Youth's Hunger for God hasn't really reached that stage of impact yet....
so... dunno.

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"i have nothing to give"

hello!! haha so sorry i've not blogged here in a really long time.

been quite busy with school and all, and spiritually okay i guess. i think one thing that is bad about being busy is that all the days seem to blur into one, and right now i'm finding it hard to remember what significant events have happened to me in the last month.

but here's a short sharing from my QT last night :)

“5Then he said to them, “Suppose one of you has a friend, and he goes to him at midnight and says, ‘Friend, lend me three loaves of bread, 6because a friend of mine on a journey has come to me, and I have nothing to set before him.’

7“Then the one inside answers, ‘Don’t bother me. The door is already locked, and my children are with me in bed. I can’t get up and give you anything.’ 8I tell you, though he will not get up and give him the bread because he is his friend, yet because of the man’s boldness[a] he will get up and give him as much as he needs. ” (Luke 11: 5-8)

“I have nothing for him to eat”. As we are aware of our inadequacies, intercession becomes the only hope and refuge. I may have knowledge, a loving heart, and be ready to give myself for those under my charge, but I cannot give them the bread of heaven. With all my love and zeal, still “I have nothing to set before him” (Luke 11:6, KJV).

my QT reading for the last couple of days have been about intercession, and the need to pray fervently, but i’ve been struggling to really understand and apply this truth to my life. and so last night when i read that i could finally identify with the motivation for intercession, especially after my faltering attempts to start caring more for my CG members. and beyond increasing our motivation to pray, i think a sense of inadequacy is also useful because it helps to keep us humble, which i find difficult sometimes. so yeah that was a pretty timely lesson for me :)

i guess all of us are probably going through a busybusy patch now, so i think we really need to pray more that as a music comm, we'll continue to be good spiritual examples for others. and perhaps a fresh touch from God? i dunno for me sometimes serving becomes very routine, just another saturday in church, so yeah that's not good i think.

haha okay enough rambling off to mug goodnight people! TAKE CARE :D