i'm sorry :O

haha. yes yes. i am aware i have broken my own fortnight rule because well, i was busy with my exams and then after that was camp whereby i had to go to church for prac almost everyday and then came camp itself and ahh, we're rushing towards christmas now. dec is like a mad mad rush. maybe this is how new yorkers feel like or something. haha.

hmm. i guess the most normal thing would be to share how youth camp was for me. well, the most encouraging and heartening thing for me was to see everyone worshiping God with arms lifted high and receiving from God, praying for people. amazing sight. something i've been praying for and will keep praying for. we must persevere in praying for our ministry because this is only just the beginning and i'm eager to see God move in even more incredible ways. what really touched my heart was to see my sister (guess which one) singing to God with raised hands and then kneeling down and just seeking God. when i saw that, i cried coz it's another answered prayer and it feels so much more amazing when it's someone close to u. yeah.

but yeah, i don't think i was a very 'good' person during the camp. i was actually supposed to stay over but i felt quite miserable coz i felt so old! and like i have no friends. haha. sound so pathetic right. and ya, i chose the easiest way out. i went home. but on thurs at dinner, my father said that i should have stayed coz i'm a leader and by leaving, i was like deserting everyone. and at first i was quite irritated but when i thought about it, God showed me how true that reprimand was and ya, i should have tried to get to know people better, make the new and young people feel at ease and stuff but yeah, i guess it's coz i was so tired from the mad rush from exams to prac to camp and i was kinda dry la. u know how bad things happen more often when we're dry. so ya la. if u see me doing stupid things like this again, tell me k. haha. come on. sharpening each other right? haha.

but ya. i wanna say woohooooooooo to tianyi coz i'm really impressed by your commitment to excellence. i was realy quite skeptical about u playing bass but wow. u are better than some other bassists who have played longer so yay. cool man. when i need a bassist, i can look to u! haha. so yeah, keep up this pursuit of excellence la. God deserves our best and more. and not just in terms of service but everything. your studies too! haha.

anyway, another amazing thing. not that i really prayed about it but i think i whined about it. basically, somehow, the english department at nus are having 2 other 4000 level mods. which means that i don't have to do this dreaded boring module called modern critical theory!!! haha. which means i should be a happier person next sem la. theory kinda sucks. haha. so yay!!!!!!! :)