clean

hello everyone! sigh i've really been tardy about updating here. no excuses, but spiritually i've been quite sian so haven't really had any Great Insights to share.

anyway, i guess yesterday's youth worship was quite good for me. during prac i was quite annoyed at myself because i was so pitchy (being distracted and all), and so when worship started proper i just prayed that i'd be able to worship, and not just to sing. because sometimes i find myself thinking, okay i need to remember how to harmonise here etcetc till i forget that i'm not performing, i'm supposed to be worshipping God. and yesterday what we learnt at band meeting, to worship "in spirit and in truth" was running through my head too, so that was a good reminder to constantly check whether i was truly worshipping God.

i also learnt a lot from sharon's message yesterday. the thing that stuck with me is the question, "If you didn't have your voice, would you still be able to worship God?" i really identified with her situation then, because my voice is really important to me, and singing is one of my main ways of connecting with God. even now when i'm having a slight sore throat and can't really sing properly i feel sad. so i can't imagine losing my voice and being unable to "worship" God. i'm still thinking about that question, and praying that God will one day teach me how to worship Him despite everything, and even through my "least preferred" way.

When the music fades
And all is stripped away
And I simply come
Longing just to bring
Something that's of worth
That will bless Your heart

next week will be really busy for me, with many deadlines and appointments to keep, so you all could just pray for strength, and for discipline to study. on a side note, as part of my involvement with Campus Crusade for Christ, i'll be going around school distributing an evangelistic newsletter so that's going to be exciting! really praying that i can reach out more in NUS, because so far i've not been doing much i think. also hoping that i can invite some of my friends to various evangelistic events that are coming up, so yeah pray for boldness too (because i usually don't ask due to my fear of rejection.)

yup i guess that's all. have a good week peoplezz :)