the time has come

The time has come
To stand for all we believe in
So I for one am gonna give my praise to You
Jesus!

this post isn't going to be very lucid because this is all off-the-cuff, but here goes.

last couple of weeks were quite dry for me spiritually, but i thank God for speaking to me more clearly on saturday :) was really ministered to during the worship, and God showed me the "state of my heart". 1) that i've become too proud to WORK at my spiritual life, i.e. being satisfied with mediocre QT and sloppy prayers. 2) that i've been content with living on past mercies, or thoughts of how God was real to me in the past. so i was greatly challenged to seek God for a new revelation every single day, and not just be satisfied with the past. as it goes in lamentations 3, "His mercies are new every morning." i won't say that i'm completely out of the woods yet, but i thank God for refreshing me last saturday :)

i've been pretty stressed recently because had a lot of deadlines and stuff, so i've been having weird stomach aches (can pray for that). quite nervous about the 1march worship because prep has been so intense, and i'm just afraid that we'll end up too focussed on the technical details and not enough on God. so yeah i'm reminding myself that this is not cast in stone, God can still rearrange my set/do something else, so praying for spiritual sensitivity.

just like tian yi, i've also been having problems inviting friends for this saturday. was reminded during the message last saturday not to treat my non-Christian friends as simply a pool of people from which i pick a few to come for evangelistic events to make myself feel good, but really, i need to start making an effort to build a friendship with them. so far those i've invited have been quite non-commital about it, so i'm a little disappointed, but yeah still praying hard for them.

other than that, it is my holidays this week! hahaha so i'm pretty happy about that :D okay that's all ciao! :)