Yesterday God told me to let go of all my baggage.
and i believe, its true for most of the things/stuff that's been happening rather recently.
For the past 2 weeks i've been rather burdened with like a tremendous load of things, (studies/whos gonna replace me when im on duty/ etc)
and.. yeah honestly i haven't been doing qt.
like after i got back my results i think i just totally deviated from it.
And... yeah im hoping that in these last 2 weeks before i fly off, God will really bring me closer to him... before my life really turns upside down. or something like that.
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Saturday, May 24, 2008
another cool thing
i led bs for my cg this week, the 'older' group and i had a lot of fun preparing for it coz it was a good time waiting on God, praying and even carefully thinking through the questions and reflecting upon how God has worked in my life and praising Him for such all over again. what was the greatest milestone in your christian walk? one that changed the way u saw God forever?
mine was when i was like 19? during that period for about a year, i felt very isolated and alone and i tried to fill that gap with shopping. i know, terrible right? haha. but yeah. i remember once when i came back on sunday evening with bags of clothes and what not and they just laid there in their glossy bags and that's when it became so clear to me that things of this world cannot satisfy. from then on, it was a bittersweet experience of looking to God for comfort and strength. i remember not being able to sleep at night, waking up at some weird hour at night and then reading the book of Isaiah. during my season of darkness, God's light shone bright for me and led me out. that was the time when i grew the most in God, when He was so much closer to me than anyone else. i knew from then on that there's no turning back from God. how can i turn back from the one who was there for me when no one else was and no one else could understand what i was feeling and going through? that period, on hindsight, was the best time of my life.
and yeah, can u say that there's no turning back on God for u from this time forth? if no, then why not? but if u want God to bring u to that point of i don't know how to put it, then just ask Him to deepen His relationship with u but hey, be prepared for what that could entail.
anyway, i deviate. the other cool thing i learnt about worship this week is that true worship involves a turning away from the ways and standards of this world. we cannot claim to be worshippers of God if we still have one leg in the ways of this world and what not. we cannot subscribe to the doctrines of this world and say that we are true worshippers of Christ. with God, things are pretty much white and black i think. it's only us who try to find excuses, muddy things up and say they're grey areas. if we really seek God and ask to know His standards, He will reveal, whether through His word or people or whatever.
so, which side are u on?
mine was when i was like 19? during that period for about a year, i felt very isolated and alone and i tried to fill that gap with shopping. i know, terrible right? haha. but yeah. i remember once when i came back on sunday evening with bags of clothes and what not and they just laid there in their glossy bags and that's when it became so clear to me that things of this world cannot satisfy. from then on, it was a bittersweet experience of looking to God for comfort and strength. i remember not being able to sleep at night, waking up at some weird hour at night and then reading the book of Isaiah. during my season of darkness, God's light shone bright for me and led me out. that was the time when i grew the most in God, when He was so much closer to me than anyone else. i knew from then on that there's no turning back from God. how can i turn back from the one who was there for me when no one else was and no one else could understand what i was feeling and going through? that period, on hindsight, was the best time of my life.
and yeah, can u say that there's no turning back on God for u from this time forth? if no, then why not? but if u want God to bring u to that point of i don't know how to put it, then just ask Him to deepen His relationship with u but hey, be prepared for what that could entail.
anyway, i deviate. the other cool thing i learnt about worship this week is that true worship involves a turning away from the ways and standards of this world. we cannot claim to be worshippers of God if we still have one leg in the ways of this world and what not. we cannot subscribe to the doctrines of this world and say that we are true worshippers of Christ. with God, things are pretty much white and black i think. it's only us who try to find excuses, muddy things up and say they're grey areas. if we really seek God and ask to know His standards, He will reveal, whether through His word or people or whatever.
so, which side are u on?
Friday, May 16, 2008
back from bangkok!
hey guys,
just touched down last night. spent about 4 days and 3 nights there and it was a lot of shopping and food. we ate tom yum soup and phad thai and sticky rice till we nearly dropped. hee.
anyway, i'm thankful that i went on the trip coz it really made me disciplined about qt and i've been very blessed so i wanna share about that and some lessons i learnt from exodus about worship.
i felt so loved by God during the trip coz He opened my eyes to see Him working and answering my prayers. minor things like praying that we won't get cheated by cab drivers to more significant things like getting to know the other people on the trip better coz i went with my good friend and her church friends and it was a good learning experience too coz i saw how much they love each other and their friends and flock in church and the thing about how others will know that we are disciples of Christ when we love one another popped up for me very strongly. i enjoyed the quiet mornings spent in prayer and word whilst the others were sleeping too. it was very refreshing and not like most holidays where there's a get out by a certain time thing but a lot more free and easy.
so anyway, i've been reading exodus ever since sun coz i was inspired to read it after the mother's day message and i'm excited about the lessons i'm learning from it. from exodus 10:
25 But Moses said, "You must allow us to have sacrifices and burnt offerings to present to the LORD our God. 26 Our livestock too must go with us; not a hoof is to be left behind. We have to use some of them in worshiping the LORD our God, and until we get there we will not know what we are to use to worship the LORD."
this passage spoke to me coz it's about bringing our all to worship and being ready to sacrifice whatever He calls us to lay down. it's about faith too and having such a close walk with God that we hear immediately what He calls us to lay down. it's that readiness and trust that is essential when we approach God and i was just like wow. i wanna do that and be like that too.
ya la. let's keep praying for the ym too. it's a spiritual work and requires spiritual means.
just touched down last night. spent about 4 days and 3 nights there and it was a lot of shopping and food. we ate tom yum soup and phad thai and sticky rice till we nearly dropped. hee.
anyway, i'm thankful that i went on the trip coz it really made me disciplined about qt and i've been very blessed so i wanna share about that and some lessons i learnt from exodus about worship.
i felt so loved by God during the trip coz He opened my eyes to see Him working and answering my prayers. minor things like praying that we won't get cheated by cab drivers to more significant things like getting to know the other people on the trip better coz i went with my good friend and her church friends and it was a good learning experience too coz i saw how much they love each other and their friends and flock in church and the thing about how others will know that we are disciples of Christ when we love one another popped up for me very strongly. i enjoyed the quiet mornings spent in prayer and word whilst the others were sleeping too. it was very refreshing and not like most holidays where there's a get out by a certain time thing but a lot more free and easy.
so anyway, i've been reading exodus ever since sun coz i was inspired to read it after the mother's day message and i'm excited about the lessons i'm learning from it. from exodus 10:
25 But Moses said, "You must allow us to have sacrifices and burnt offerings to present to the LORD our God. 26 Our livestock too must go with us; not a hoof is to be left behind. We have to use some of them in worshiping the LORD our God, and until we get there we will not know what we are to use to worship the LORD."
this passage spoke to me coz it's about bringing our all to worship and being ready to sacrifice whatever He calls us to lay down. it's about faith too and having such a close walk with God that we hear immediately what He calls us to lay down. it's that readiness and trust that is essential when we approach God and i was just like wow. i wanna do that and be like that too.
ya la. let's keep praying for the ym too. it's a spiritual work and requires spiritual means.
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
i think yesterday was one time where i learnt what true worship is.
its not about how you do it, or where, but more of why you do it. and how you respond to the things around you.
2 days ago, i had to run around my house neighbourhood in ...disgustingly disgusting shorts.
when i went out. i felt so crap like i just didn't feel like doing the daily jog.
and thats when God reminded me about true worship; why do you raise your hands in worship? Cuz the congregation does it? or cuz it looks cool? ( ok clearly it doesn't)
but how bout more of cuz we lift it to actually praise God? To have the actual close and personal worship that we share.
another time when i went jogging, God impressed upon me the decision i should actually have taken. and i believe will have to take sooner or later.
As some of you know, i may not be able to make it for worship pracs because i got a cca in the morning, thus the two commitments collide. And as i was asking God for help, to find out which way is the way he wishes for me to continue.
He gave me this sentence
" A true christian walks the narrow path, Many fall out of it into the wide one"
even though God didn't exactly answer my question. but i think he was talking about how easy it is for my to just lie and give a fake excuse just to skip band and go for prac.
which i sometimes have been doing. So... i guess that the direction he is kinda leading me into is to withdraw from the music min for a while.
Maybe. i don't really know yet.
its not about how you do it, or where, but more of why you do it. and how you respond to the things around you.
2 days ago, i had to run around my house neighbourhood in ...disgustingly disgusting shorts.
when i went out. i felt so crap like i just didn't feel like doing the daily jog.
and thats when God reminded me about true worship; why do you raise your hands in worship? Cuz the congregation does it? or cuz it looks cool? ( ok clearly it doesn't)
but how bout more of cuz we lift it to actually praise God? To have the actual close and personal worship that we share.
another time when i went jogging, God impressed upon me the decision i should actually have taken. and i believe will have to take sooner or later.
As some of you know, i may not be able to make it for worship pracs because i got a cca in the morning, thus the two commitments collide. And as i was asking God for help, to find out which way is the way he wishes for me to continue.
He gave me this sentence
" A true christian walks the narrow path, Many fall out of it into the wide one"
even though God didn't exactly answer my question. but i think he was talking about how easy it is for my to just lie and give a fake excuse just to skip band and go for prac.
which i sometimes have been doing. So... i guess that the direction he is kinda leading me into is to withdraw from the music min for a while.
Maybe. i don't really know yet.
Saturday, May 10, 2008
"In Him I will put my trust"
Really lazy to copy and paste the entire thing... Pls refer to my blog for the fortnight post
http://yqcabizpark.blogspot.com
Thanks,
Yong Quan
http://yqcabizpark.blogspot.com
Thanks,
Yong Quan
Thursday, May 1, 2008
exams over
hey guys,
yes, i'm the bad example that no one should follow coz i have not been blogging at all since err, i don't even dare to go back to check. haha. i'm very sorry. i had a crazy workload this semester and it was a lot of book reading, essay writing, tests, essay(S) re-writing (this was the ultimate horror) and then the rush to exams. i finished my last paper yesterday so yay! rejoice with me. haha.
yeah, because of my own mad school life, i haven't been focusing my energies and mind on youth music. that's my error/sin. tianyi suggested that we have a meeting next sun, 11 may so yeah, i'll send out agenda soon but it's mainly to catch up and pray coz there're so many things we need to commit to God together. the bassist crisis has been a real downer for me. i'll share more when i see everyone and hmm, i'm quite happy that now that the hols are here, i'll be able to focus my energies and time properly. i'll most probably ask u guys out for tea or something so pls don't break my heart and refuse me!!!! haha.
i concur with pastor completely about not being complacent coz for a while, i think i was praying about that too. i say i think coz i have zero memory now :P and yeah, i've been sorta asking God, how come there doesn't seem to be fruit in the ministry, particularly the ymm. like the musicians who serve. i pray for them that even if when they started playing, they didn't have a relationship with God then somehow through service, that relationship will start and somehow, it doesn't seem so. if anyone wants to disagree about this, please do. and then i struggle a lot with what 'kind' of people should be allowed to serve. i'm rambling and my grammar and syntax is all over the place. gahsh. ok la. i'll try to share my heart succinctly when we have the meeting.
but let's really persevere in praying for the ministry.
yes, i'm the bad example that no one should follow coz i have not been blogging at all since err, i don't even dare to go back to check. haha. i'm very sorry. i had a crazy workload this semester and it was a lot of book reading, essay writing, tests, essay(S) re-writing (this was the ultimate horror) and then the rush to exams. i finished my last paper yesterday so yay! rejoice with me. haha.
yeah, because of my own mad school life, i haven't been focusing my energies and mind on youth music. that's my error/sin. tianyi suggested that we have a meeting next sun, 11 may so yeah, i'll send out agenda soon but it's mainly to catch up and pray coz there're so many things we need to commit to God together. the bassist crisis has been a real downer for me. i'll share more when i see everyone and hmm, i'm quite happy that now that the hols are here, i'll be able to focus my energies and time properly. i'll most probably ask u guys out for tea or something so pls don't break my heart and refuse me!!!! haha.
i concur with pastor completely about not being complacent coz for a while, i think i was praying about that too. i say i think coz i have zero memory now :P and yeah, i've been sorta asking God, how come there doesn't seem to be fruit in the ministry, particularly the ymm. like the musicians who serve. i pray for them that even if when they started playing, they didn't have a relationship with God then somehow through service, that relationship will start and somehow, it doesn't seem so. if anyone wants to disagree about this, please do. and then i struggle a lot with what 'kind' of people should be allowed to serve. i'm rambling and my grammar and syntax is all over the place. gahsh. ok la. i'll try to share my heart succinctly when we have the meeting.
but let's really persevere in praying for the ministry.
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