another cool thing

i led bs for my cg this week, the 'older' group and i had a lot of fun preparing for it coz it was a good time waiting on God, praying and even carefully thinking through the questions and reflecting upon how God has worked in my life and praising Him for such all over again. what was the greatest milestone in your christian walk? one that changed the way u saw God forever?

mine was when i was like 19? during that period for about a year, i felt very isolated and alone and i tried to fill that gap with shopping. i know, terrible right? haha. but yeah. i remember once when i came back on sunday evening with bags of clothes and what not and they just laid there in their glossy bags and that's when it became so clear to me that things of this world cannot satisfy. from then on, it was a bittersweet experience of looking to God for comfort and strength. i remember not being able to sleep at night, waking up at some weird hour at night and then reading the book of Isaiah. during my season of darkness, God's light shone bright for me and led me out. that was the time when i grew the most in God, when He was so much closer to me than anyone else. i knew from then on that there's no turning back from God. how can i turn back from the one who was there for me when no one else was and no one else could understand what i was feeling and going through? that period, on hindsight, was the best time of my life.

and yeah, can u say that there's no turning back on God for u from this time forth? if no, then why not? but if u want God to bring u to that point of i don't know how to put it, then just ask Him to deepen His relationship with u but hey, be prepared for what that could entail.

anyway, i deviate. the other cool thing i learnt about worship this week is that true worship involves a turning away from the ways and standards of this world. we cannot claim to be worshippers of God if we still have one leg in the ways of this world and what not. we cannot subscribe to the doctrines of this world and say that we are true worshippers of Christ. with God, things are pretty much white and black i think. it's only us who try to find excuses, muddy things up and say they're grey areas. if we really seek God and ask to know His standards, He will reveal, whether through His word or people or whatever.

so, which side are u on?